You know, my mom is a super-impulsive person. She will make the most life-changing decisions with no forethought and no agonizing about it. She just decides and BOOM moves forward. For example, once, when I was in high school, she decided, on a whim, to move our entire family across country one day, and we SET OUT to do this the very next day. She pulled us out of school and said we’d send for our things and we packed one bag a piece, grabbed our cat and left. This didn’t go as planned, (thankfully!) but this is the sort of thing I am talking about. I love my mom, and things with her are never predictable. But… a little predictability would have been nice, growing up, I think.
I have always maintained that I am not like this. That I am a planner. A plotter. But, as I’ve gotten older, I’ve come to realize that I really am not. I seem to have inherited at least a taste of my mother’s impulsivity. I met my husband and knew I wanted to marry him within weeks. We bought the first house we looked at. Our first child was a “What the heck, why not?” decision. All of these have worked out quite well for us, but I could name dozens of impulsive decisions that have not worked out for us. Impulsivity is not necessarily a good trait even if it is an interesting one.
I can just hear y’all thinking (yes I did just use y’all. I was born and raised in the South, thank you very much!) where is she going with this? Well, I DO have a point. Last week when I announced my retirement, I had vaguely decided that I was probably going to have to retire because of family commitments, but when I wrote that post on bin Laden, I just decided there and then to retire. I told no one beforehand (not even my husband or kids) I just did it and didn’t think about it. And then I got a bunch of emails and calls from friends and family members who were just a TAD put out that I hadn’t told them first.
Frankly, I was amazed. First of all, I had no idea these people were even keeping up with CBW anymore or paying any attention whatsoever to what I do or say online. (Note to self, be more careful here!) Second of all, it made me realize that this is probably a decision that most people would have taken just a bit more seriously. Eh, live and learn.
Now that I’ve had a bit to get used to it, I am more convinced than ever that it was the right decision for us. I had been planning on just posting the last few cartoons I had done and calling it good, but THEN I got to thinking… (cue scary music). Wouldn’t it be better to actually post one last cartoon from all the major characters? Wouldn’t it be better to write one cartoon specifically for Manny and Eve to end on? One that said all I ever wanted to say? (Don’t hold your breath here, I just ain’t that deep, folks!)
So be it. So shall it be.
Clear Blue Water was supposed to end last week, and it IS ending, oh yes indeedy it is. But it might take a few weeks for me to decide she’s good and done. Every few days I will post a cartoon or two or three until one day it will say THE END, and then you will know (if you choose to follow along just a little while longer) that we are done. The blog? As I’ve said, I’ll keep it going for awhile or longer. And when I finally announce what I am currently hard at work on, I hope a few of you will be interested.